I watched her smile, I watched her eyes
I wondered why I am so attached to her
I thought I forgot her, ’Cause she couldn’t
be mine
In a world of illussion a story based
up on a lie
I want to forget her, but time doesn’t
fly
I walked behind her, just looking at her
My memories flashed before my eyes
I’ve been in this situation before
But that was along time ago, in my past
Those feelings I thought I’ve lost
This was present, this was today
But I wanted this behind me, She forgot
it too
Wandering all alone, don’t have anything
to say
A mystyrious dreamer, like a shadow
Hiding behind your door
Do you remember how it was before?
I was down, almost terrified of the future
Standing just behind the door
Never want to be in the same situation
Never want to fall inlove again
Never ever again
Now tell me something, my friend
I want to know about my future
Tell me the whole story, tell me the long-awaited
end
Perhaps we’ll both live a happy life
Perhaps we shall not, perhaps we’ll die
in sorrow
This is a moment to rememeber, this is
the real end
So long my friend, we’ll see the future
together…AGAIN
Written on September 16th 1998
© 1998 Pavel Maira
Blaming on me
Written by Pavel Maira
All you can is blame on me
From what fockin’ point do you look
What is it that you see
Does it say ”Blame on me” in some book?
All you can do is say my name
Even if I’m innocent you don’t care
I think you should feel ashamed
You’re a scare little shit, you just don’t
dare
So you think that I’m easy to abuse?
All you think about is some shit to do
to me
All you want to do to me, is acuse
Empty of emotions, what do you really
see?
So c’mon what the fock are you waiting
for?
Hurt me, abuse me and probably kill me
I don’t care, it’s on your mind afterwards
You’ve said so before
I don’t care of what you think or what
you do
After this I don’t know if I ever can
trust you
You don’t believe what I say, don’t want
to know the truth
But I forgive you, I’m a bit smarter,
I don’t blame you
Written on September 22nd 1998
© 1998 Pavel Maira
In the rain, storm and even cold
Let me see you walk down my road
Lift your head up high and walk with pride
Light up the sides they’ve tried to hide
In my chair, where I now sitt
I watch you, in my heart I feel a hit
Passing the public, you emenate a heat
Moving slowly, increases my heart’s beat
In the winter, summer or spring
Let me touch your lips, the warm feel
that they bring
Lift your head up high and talk with pride
Tell me about the thoughts they’ve tried
to hide
By your door, where I now stand
Open the door, and let me take your hand
I know you’re unsure, but just for today
Trust me, I won’t let you slip away
I can’t tell you the way I feel
Life for me is like a turning wheel
I can’t be the way you want me to be
Things in life are not made for me
I won’t keep my distance
Love and pain still have their existence
Even though they hated you and lied
You were walking by with pride
Written on October 2nd 1998
© 1998 Pavel Maira