KURT COBAIN
1967-1994
R.I.P
Kurt Cobain har betydd ganska mycket för mig genom åren. Hans sätt att attackera sitt eget kändisskap, hans hat mot media och "mainstream musik" men framför allt hans sätt att skapa musik och texter har förändrat mitt sätt att tänka genom åren. Kurt Cobain blev någon slags martyr för en hel generation i och med självmordet 1994. Här nedan kan du läsa hans avskedsbrev. Han skriver "to Boddah" och det är inte en felstavning av Budha utan det är Kurt Cobains låtsaskompis han hade som barn.
Kurt Cobains avskedsbrev:
"To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experinced simpleton who obviously
would rather be an emasclated,infantile complain-ee.This note
should be prety easy to understund.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the
years,since my first intrutuction to the,shall we say,ethics
involved with independence and embracement of your community has
proven to be very true.I haven`t felt the excitement of listening
to as well creating music along with reading and writing for too
many years now.I feel guilty beyond words about these things.
For example when we’re backstage and the lights go out and
the manic roar of the crowd begins,it dosend affect me the way in
which it did for Freddy Mercury,who seemed to love,relish in the
love and adoration from the crowd,wich is something I totaly
admire and envy.The facts is,I cant fool you,any one of you.It
simply isn’t fair to you or me.
The worst crime I can think of woult be to rip people off faking
it and predenting as if I’m having 100% fun.
Sometimes I feel as if I shuld have a punch-in time clock before
I walk out on stage.I've tried everything within my power to
appreciete it (and I do,God beleve me i do,but it s not enough).I
appreciate the fact that I and we have affect and entertained a
lot of people.I most be one of those narcissist who only
appreciate things when theyre gone.Im too sensitive.I need to be
slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a
child.
On our last three tours,Ive had amuch better appreciation for all
the people Ive know personally and as fans of our music,but I
still cant get over the fustration,the guilt and empathy I have
for everyone.Thers good in all of us and I think I simply love
people to much,so much that it makes me feel to fucking sad.The
sad litle,sensitive,unappreciative,pices,Jesus man! Why dont you
just enjoy it?I dont know!
I have ogoddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a
doughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be,full of
love and joy,kissing every person she meets becusse everyone is
good and will do her no harm.And that terrifies me to the point
to where I can barely function.I cant stand the thougt of Frances
becoming the miserble,self-destructive,death rocker that I
become.
I have it good very good ,and Im grateful,but since the age of
seven,Ive become hateful towards all humans in general.Only
because it seems so easy for people to get along and have
empathy.Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I
guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning,nauseus stomach for your
letters and cncern during the past years.Im too much of an
erratic,moody,baby!I dont have the passion anymore,and so
remember,its better to burn out than fade away.
Peace,Love,Empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney I be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney,for Frances.
For her life,wich will be so much happier without me
I LOVE YOU ,I LOVE YOU!