Deep
down in your heart
There
is a desire
Desire
for someone that you love
Running
you are
Away
from that feeling
Afraid
of what might come
If
it is answered
Greater
than any in the world
Afraid
you are
To
tear it down
What
is on the other side?
Love?
Hate?
Distrust?
Whatever
it is
Fear
is preventing you
From
moving on
To
find love
On
the other side
Its
dark
Unknown
territory
Anything
that could hurt is there
To
hunt you
To
stop you
Can
you move on?
No,
you say
Yes,
you say
Meanwhile,
the desire is growing
On
the other side
Someone
is waiting
Patiently,
on your return
In
the darkness that is without you
Desire
there is
Desire
for you
Waiting
in the dark
Waiting
alone
***
I
walk in the fields of heaven,
An
angel is following the path I go,
She
emanates the light of a million stars,
Tearing
down the stones around my heart,
Keeping
the beasts of darkness away,
The
shape of my heart is that of a rose,
A
red rose in the wild,
Growing
strong with the winds of love,
I
am now ready to embrace,
Embrace
the love of the rose,
I
will never abandon the truth,
Truth
of her divine love,
Beast
of hell may stand in our path,
Only
to be destroyed with the true love of a star,
A
star so bright,
It
will dominate heaven and hell,
Removing
the pain of a thousand sins,
Committed
in the time of absence,
Absence
of the starlight in my life,
The
light is burning the evil away,
Never
to return,
Never
to be reborn in my heart,
She
is my life, my love,
She
is the essence of true love,
May
destiny never separate me from her again,
Else
I will be lost in hell for all eternity,
Hell
is my home no more,
Lady
Rose is my home,
For
life and eternity
***
Lady
Rose
She
appears like the early winter morning,
Glistening
like thousand snow flings in sunshine,
The
wind blows through her like she was an angel,
She
is light as air, thin as air,
Her
eyes are like the moon at night,
Shining
with silver light,
The
wind moves her hair in harmony,
Black
like a dark cave,
Glittering
in the reflection of light,
Her
lips are like soft silk,
When
touched give the feeling of eternal love,
The
touch of her hands is like the rose,
Sharp
and soft,
Leaves
a smell of spring,
She
speaks like the trees,
Slow,
soft and with a breeze,
Her
moving body flows as a river,
Gracious
and without resistance,
Her
presence makes the heart stop and listening,
She
makes me speechless as she laid her eyes on me,
Lost
in the light of her eyes,
Lost
in her soul of love,
Paralysed
by her smell of fresh roses,
She
moved past me,
Creating
a longing stronger than life,
Stronger
than me,
My
soul left me and followed her,
Followed
her to eternity of love,
Her
whispering voice as she sing,
Filled
the hole in my heart,
Gave
me hope to live,
She
is my life and eternal light,
Without
her I would be lost,
In
the dark secluded depths of hell,
Heaven
walks with her,
Bringing
life to all she touch,
Changed
my life forever making me hers,
I
walk with her to the end of time,
To
the end of everything,
Without
remorse
***
You
are alone in the dark
Thoughts,
buried deep down in your heart
Emerges
and haunt you
The
images of her
The
time in your past
You
can still smell her in the air
It
wasn’t long ago
Since
your last encounter with her
Still
you don’t dare to talk
To
tell your story of love
You
are not afraid of her anger
You
are not scared to hear her words
You
are terrified of the answer
So
terrified you can’t walk anymore
You
lay down on the side of the road
Staring
in to the dark sky
Your
heart is burning so hard
But
nothing can change that anymore
You
are lost in the night
And
can’t find your way home
Salvation
is there but yet so far away
Lost
in another life
Another
heart
You
scream for help
None
replies to your request
They
look at you
But
they are just passing by
You
are alone
In
the dark secluded depths
Falling
deeper and deeper
No
light to follow
Like
a zombie
You
glance at her
While
the image slowly dissolve
Darkness
is all that is left
Alone
you are
Alone
***
Trust
Hurt
came in abundance
There
was none to rely on
Those
whom you love
All
hurt you with no thoughts
Of
what it did to you
You
trusted your heart to them
They
crushed you
Without
any consideration
Lovers,
friends and family
Walked
over you
Left
you in the dirt
Stepping
on you
On
their way to the future
Whom
can you trust?
You
ask
You
found the answer
But
the love you found
Was
to good to be true
Everyday
you waited
Anxiously
That
he too would hurt you
Small
things he did
Build
up and became huge
He
tried to please you
Everyday,
but he failed
Restless
you became
More
everyday
One-day
home
You
couldn’t take it anymore
He
must hurt you!
He
must!
He
didn’t
Then
you left
Leaving
a huge wound
That
would never heal
A
crushed heart you left
Repeating
the cycle of life
Then
he hurt you
In
desperation he did
Trying
to keep you
He
hurt you
The
same way you hurt him
Who
is to blame?
Who?
***
The
White Lady
Sparkling
with rays of light
Moving
through the air as a falling star
Bright,
fast and gracious
She
takes the breath out of any man
As
she casually moves through their hearts
She
sees you but yet not
Her
mind and heart is somewhere else
You
long for her but she is not there for you
The
pain in your heart is slowly growing
With
every time you see her on the street
She
walks past and next to you
Your
heart is beating like a drum
Yet,
she still don’t hear you
Your
mind wants to talk
But
your mouth isn’t there to utter the words
Cowardly
you move on
Agonizing
is the pain in your heart
You
linger in the darkness of your mind
Linger
for her
The
white lady in your mind
Why?
You ask yourself
Why
can’t she see you?
Why?
White Lady, can’t you see I am burning for you?
The
coward in you tells the answer
The
feeling you feel when you see the truth
The
pain you experience is your own fault
White
Lady is not to blame
Cause
she can’t see the flame in your heart
Burning
so strong
Hope
that she will stop and take a closer look
At
your burning desire for her
White
Lady in the night!
Hear
me, see me, and tell me
Is there hope?
***
Silence
To
hear the voice
Just
to hear it
It
doesn’t matter
How
short
How
long
I
just want to hear
The
sound of you
Silence
is my foe
Harsh
it feels
The
absence of sound
Your
sound
On
silence I walk
Over
the abyss
If
it’s broken
I
will fall
In
to your arms
If
it’s not broken
I
will walk
Away
from you
Further
and further
Until
there is no return
Until
I cant hear you
Anymore
Oh,
the pain
Of
silence
Don’t
let the absence of sound
Be
your guide
Scream
loud
So
you can be heard
Stop
the silence
With
your voice
Make
me stop
Listen
to you
Hear
you
Telling
me to stop
And I will
***
Towards
the future
The
next millennium
What
will come?
What
will happen to me?
Where
have everyone gone?
You
don’t care
The
future is like a black road
Only
lit by the flashlight in your hand
How
will you see the end?
Where
will it go?
Who
will hurt you next?
A
black whole is swallowing the road
Consuming
all that is you
Making
you empty like a dry desert
Who
will use you next?
What
lies will you be told?
How
much will it hurt?
The
future could be glorious
It
could be beautiful
Even
fantastic
The
past tells otherwise
It
will be random pain
Piles
of dirt thrown at you
More
lies told
None
to trust
Where
can you go?
Why
not just lie down?
Turn
around and go back?
There
is no option
You
walk as you always do
Following
the road to the future
No
matter what will happen
Hoping
to find the peace you seek
The
perfect world
Where
all your dreams come true
You
will find it
Eventually
Or die
***
Broken wings
Over
all the lands
You
where strong
Beat
all the fears in your heart
None
could stop you
Flying
over time
Beyond
the boundaries
Put
up by others
Invincible
you was
Giving
me strength to fight
Pushing
me beyond my limits
Helping
me to fly
Now
your wings are broken
You
lie there alone
Shattered
by lies
Never
will you fly again
The
chain on your neck
Is
heavy and prevents you from moving
Away
from the enemy
Closing
in they are
To
finish their work
You
stand there
With
your head high
Not
fighting anymore
Letting
them destroy your wings
One
among them is me
Tries
to put them back on
Help
you to fly again
In
vain
You
are dying
I
am crying
The
others just watch
As
your strength withers away
At
last you close your eyes
Leaving
behind
My
broken heart and me
Shame
I feel
To
loose you
To
let you die
Without a fight
***
Walk with me
What
am I saying?
To
whom am I saying?
Why
am I saying?
Do
you understand?
What
I tell
To
you in the night
You
hear me
But
do you really hear?
Can
I understand you?
Your
story
Your
request
We
walk past each other
Talking
to one another
Our
words slip by
Missing
us both
Angry
we get
Hurt
it does
Stop
and listen
We
need
Take
time to understand
Keep
our anger below
Trust
each other
We
have to
Or
it will go bad
Gentle
is the word
To
guide us
So
we don’t get hurt
Once
again
We
almost got lost
I
hope we will find our way
Together
Without
the abyss
Of
misunderstanding
I
cry
Every
time we miss
Our
goal
Help
me find the way
And
I will help you
Walk
with me
To
end of time
Walk
with me
Forever
***
Insanity
It’s
the road to insanity
The
longer I walk
It
grows within
Yearning
for someone
It's
a lost cause
The
road will never end
Only
get steeper and steeper
Harder
and harder
To
reach the illusion
Franticly
I walk
Towards
the insanity
I
can se it
I
can hear it
I
can’t do anything
To
stop it
The
harder I try
The
further away it gets
I
must be insane
To
beat my self
Against
the rock
My
feet are bleeding
Scraped
by the glass
I
walk on
Spectators
laughing
Pointing
at the fool
Shouting
strange words
Stop!
I
don’t understand
I
can’t stop anymore
Either
I reach my goal
Or
I will die
Trying
to reach it
Insane
it is
I know
***
Slowly
destroying everything
In
my path
I
burn everything I see
Anger
Fear
Happiness
All
is burning
Everything
is consumed
Carefully
I gather the small pieces
Throwing
it on the fire
I
can’t help it
I
have to destroy it
Before
it destroys me
The
weight of it all
Is
to much
I
will not carry it anymore
How
did this happen?
Why
am I destroying everything?
All
she said was
Happy
Christmas
And
Happy
New Year
The
words cut me so deep
I
still cry
I
was bleeding to death
I
had to stop it
Before
I bleed to death
So
I am burning down my road
Cutting
of everything
Before
I die
I
will never let anything
Come
that close to my heart again
I
still want to love
But
I am now building a wall
That
none will ever brake
Shutting
the sun out
I
am getting frozen
So cold
***
Tearing
me up from my roots
Tossing
me around
Playing
with me like a doll
Pounding
me in to walls
Crushing
me with its roaring fury
Helpless
I float around
In
the air
Wherever
the wind takes me
I
watch the world from above
As
I plunge down to earth
I
don’t see anyone out
Walking
the streets
Its
empty
Everyone
is hiding
Afraid
of the angry wind
What
are they afraid of?
Come
out and see
See
the world through the raging wind
Its
rips your soul to shreds
It
feels so good
To
loose control
Of
life
To
be lifted of the ground
Blown
away to the sky
Knowing
you will die
When
you come down to earth again
Follow
the force
Like
a rocket
Use
the force
For
the brief moment you can grasp it
Grab
the moment
Before
it’s to late
I
am diving fast now
Closing
in on the ground
Following
the wind
There
it ends
Back
in to dust I fell
Not
moving anymore
Who
cares?
I lived
***
Don’t
waste it
There
are many out there
Trying
to change you
Sell
you the world
Telling
you what to think
Making
you believe them
They
are better than you
That’s
what they say
Judging
you for what you are
Come!
Follow us!
Look
like us! Be like us!
NO
I SAY!
Fight
them
Never
sell your soul to them
Make
your own image
Don’t
let anyone tell you what to do
Scream
out loud if you have to
Show
them that you are better
Don’t
care what they say
Do
as you please
Follow
your own road
Let
them laugh at you
Just
smile and move on
Feel
good about yourself
No
matter how bad it goes
It
doesn’t matter
You
are glorious
Special
in everyway
Fat,
ugly, beautiful, shining or not
We
all give something to this world
Enjoy
it everyday
In
your home, at work, far away
Rich
or poor
Lying
down, running, flying
You
are still you
Nothing
can change that
Be
who you are
Keep your soul
***
Time pass
The clock keeps ticking
No matter what you do
You stand here waiting
People rushing by
Hurrying to places
Important things to do
At least that's what they think
What could be more important?
Than waiting
Waiting for someone
That you love
The world may tumble down Around you
But you stand there
Don't care
One day she will come
Walking through that door
With a big smile
Happy to see you
Knowing you waited for her
Even though it took a long time
You will always wait
For true love
You will sacrifice
Everything for that
Evil may come
Destroying everything in its path
You will not budge
If the skies opens and rain down fire
You will not move
You may die
Then you will do so
Your sole will still be there
Waiting for her
Because you love her
***
Dawn
The sun walks above the horizon
Spreading its light
Waking everyone up
Life starts once more
The dawn is filled With light and cold air
Your breath creates long mists
Every time you breathe
In that mist she appears
Like a ghost
She smiles at you
Open her arms
Wants you to come to her
You walk towards her
Then she is gone
Once again you lost her
Will you ever see her again?
And there she reemerges
In the mist she walks
Unreachable to anyone
A beautiful angel she is
Her presence
Even a ghostly one
Gives you satisfaction
Everyday in your life
The memories make you live
Going on in the walk of life
The time you had with her
It was all worth it
Even though it ended
You smile
With the image of her
In the mist in front of you
Thank you
For your time
***
The next day
What happened?
You feel empty
Disillusioned
But the other day
Was great
You walk forth and back
Looking at the phone
Like a deer
Waiting for the tiger
To show up
Nervously you wait
Nothing happens
You expected that of course
Love is not enough
Action is not enough
Money is not enough
Nothing is enough
If the feeling isn't there
You know the feeling is there
You have seen it
Yesterday
In her eyes
And the way she fight with you
She still loves you
But she will never come back
To you
No matter what you do
The road is closed
By an invisible wall
She will never open her heart
To anyone anymore
She is lost
In her own fear
Nothing you do
Can bring her out
All you can do
Is watch her disappear
In to the fog of time
"Farewell my love"
***
Time
Everyone say
Time will heal
Heal all wounds
I then ask
When will it heal?
How much time will it take?
Pain is my companion everyday
Wherever I go
She is there
In my mind
Every phone call
I think it's her
Every person walking
Through the door
At work
I think it's her
Everyday she is in my mind
It gets worse for everyday
When will it end?
How can it ever end?
Time don't heal the wounds
It only conceal it
Hides the wound
Until something comes back
Rip it all open again
Bleeding like a river
Draining me of my strength
In all the time
I don't do anything
I think of her
Every second Of my life
I thought the wise men Was right
Time will heal all wounds
I know now that they are wrong
Time only conceal
Makes it worse next time
I see her
***
Mirror
I look in to the mirror
I see a stranger
Who is he?
I have never seen him before
Once I think I knew him
I think he used to be me
Now I don't know anymore
I have lost control
Over my self
And don't know where I have gone
I am lost
Staring at a stranger in the mirror
The mirror gets blurry
Suddenly it's none there
A whole opens
A strong wind starts
It tears me to shreds
I vanished in to the mirror
Next time I open my eyes
I still gaze in to the mirror
I don't know what I see
It's not me
It cold be her
I am not sure
I am so confused
Can someone smash the mirror?
So I can move again
I understand what I do
But what I can't understand
Is why I do it?
Watching the mirror
Is like entering the abyss
To hell
It hurts badly
Still I can't stop
I try to reach out
In to the mirror
Only to get rejected
By her
***
Pity
I pity those
Who don't know love
Yes, It hurts
It hurt so much it could kill you
But if you never loved someone
You have never lived
Sometimes you love
But don't really know it
That's what happened to me
I loved her
But I didn't see it
Until It was to late
I lost her
Forever
Will I ever find that love again?
Pity I feel
For myself
I don't know if it's right
To feel that about oneself
But I do
Pity that I lost
Everything that had any meaning
To my life
I have felt Strong feelings for someone else
But I had to remove them
Before it would kill me
It's a pity she isn't here
She might be the right one
Not sure
Her heart is somewhere else
Tending to someone else
Pity poor me
Because I cant find my way home
Lost I am
Promise me
If you walk past me
Kill me
***
Hell
To hell with everything
To hell with you
Let them all burn
I want to see them twist in agony
Getting burned in hell
Yes, I hate you
I want to kill you
Feel the last breath of you
Leaving
See you die before my feet
I will crush you under my feet
Like the bug you are
You don't deserve me
I can get much better in my life
HAHAHAHAHA
And we all know this is a lie
It's all a lie
The hate I feel
Its not you I hate
It's me I hate
I hate myself
Because I am helpless
To do anything
I can't even hold on to myself
It's no wonder
I can't hold on to you
I will never hate you
Never get angry
At least I will try
I wish hell could come
Take me away
To end my torture
With another Hell!
Even the worst sinner
Have a good time
Compared to lost love
Let me sleep
Don't ever wake me up
Because you will hurt me
Like
hell
Written by
Conny Lindquist
Ps. If you have any comments on these poems, please, let me know!
I will also make a link here to the whole poem-collection I got. Its a word2000 file I ziped.
