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[4.50 am]

Just got home..... I apologize if anything I write now sounds crazy, but I'm drunk..... Everything is spinning.... Been talking to my ex girlfriend again, she doesn't accept that it is over... Don't know what to do to convince her. Adde is asleep.... WOW.... Got to slepp now so I'll be sober tomorrow... Hehe... Later today I mean.... :-)

Good bye. Sorry. See u later I mean. Someone told me tht u shouldn't say good bye. Sllep tight. Sweet dreams..... Gdnigth

[11.45 am]

Hi there... Just woke up. I'm glad I haven't got a hangover. Maria just called, must go help her to carry out some boxes and stuff from our old apartment. She's moving out, so I suppose I'm staying there. At least until the first of July. Or until I get a job somewhere else. After that I don't know where to go. My mother thinks that I should move in with her for a while, until I get a job or something like that. I'm not so sure that it would be such a good idea, we would probably argue all the time. Or maybe not. I don't know. Best for all would be if I got the job in Stockholm. There is a woman on Motormannen named Lillemor who is going to decide my destiny. Strange how things turn out sometimes :-)

[1.55 pm]

Just had to write that I and Adde roamed the streets of Osthammar last night. Singing. Ledin of course :-) And I must also write about how I think of my life right now....

I think of myself standing in the dawn of my life. I'm facing east, the sun shining on my face. My shadow and all darkness lies behind me. I have passed the night and now things will only become brighter. As more time pass, the sun will only rise higher in the sky. When the sun hits zenit I'm an old man, dying in my brightest moment. The sun will never go down again. Darkness will never dominate my life again.